Uncertainty

There are days when I feel like a real failure. I mean, I'm forty-two years old and just barely scraping by financially. My husband and I are separated and I'm living in an apartment with my three kids. I'm employed by a bankrupt state government and my salary doesn't even cover my rent. Our house is in foreclosure. And I have a sixteen year old who is failing all his classes. I'm also overweight.

I have never been ambitious career-wise. I don't know that my personality allows for that. I lack focus much of the time as well. I have a more creative temperament, but I never considered an artistic career. I wish I had.

Now I'm wrestling with where to go from here. I feel like time is running out - like if I don't start down a road right now I'm going to be stuck wandering forever. But which way do I go?