I have wanted to quit my job for years. Which is interesting since I only started three years ago so it was quite soon that this feeling surfaced... Last month it finally dawned on me that I needed to leave. For my body (which had been on the decline since shortly after starting there) and for my sanity (which had also been on said decline). The decision became very clear the day I drove my daughter to school snapped at her in the car. My daughter is a very strong person, not typically taken to crying. But there she was in my car crying out of frustration and exasperation because I had treated her badly. I didn't mean to treat her badly. I was just tired. Tired because I seem to have only enough energy for one part of my life. I give all the good stuff to my job and then any leftovers to my family. That is not right. That has to change.
A lot of other things came to bear; details I don't really care to get into hear. But I realized that I had been unhappy at work for some time and that there was going to be no change in my situation there in the foreseeable future - or that actually it would get worse for me there. So I tendered my resignation last month without any real kind of plan. All I knew something out there has to be better. But before I find that, I had to rebuild my self confidence from the inside out. I had to work on me.
So here we are in Project Me. I will be taking the summer off from work to "work" on ME. Physically through exercise, massage, yoga and eating better. Spiritually through mediation. And mentally through freeing myself from the mind games and other work junk. By the end of the summer I intend to be work capable, work ready, and self confident and happy enough to get any job.
Day One
I am proud of myself! After taking the kids to school, I went straight to the gym. I rode the bike and SWAM.. It felt FANTASTIC! It's so much nicer to workout without the stress of having to go back to work.
Afterwards I got a lot done.
